method of mourning

tonight is a big audition; a gut wrenching scene.

a september 11th survivor, a mother of a toddler, a woman bereft of her best friend.

i am none of these.

my preparation has drained me of all of light. i feel hollow and broken.

my condolences to the hand which tries to glue me back together.

i'll never know even a sliver of a real victim's agony.

thus more reason to honor them with every cell of my scene.

in gratitude.

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